This blocks thing that wordpress has



Hi my readers

I’ve been a long time user of wordpress. I also have been using a lot of different platforms and that being said, I strongly dislike this blocks thing that wordpress implemented. 

Change is good and all but not when it comes to hobby. This blog is hobby to me and I don’t feel like learning programming just to be able to blog. I think that that is also the reason why I stopped blogging. Sure, I didn’t post so much in a first place, but this really made me postpone my posting. I do have a lot of prepared posts but aren’t yet edited because I write but then the blocks make me just click EXIT very fast. The other day, a whole very long post got deleted because of the blocks and none of my „tricks“ helped. Or helped partially and misplaced all the sections.

Just now I tried to edit a post so I can publish it but I got so frustrated but instead, I went out and wrote this! 

How dumb is to be able to erase several blocks at once but you can’t select and copy the text from several at once…. 


I understand that is good for people that use their page professionally but it does nothing to me. The classic editor being available to business or premium users is also very cowardly move. 

And this is not me, I adjust, but this is pure frustration (as previously stated examples). 


Do you have the same problem? Do you struggle with this change too? Share the misery with me 😀

Prisoners get a cat for good behavior


Hi my Readers 🙂

Another subject that I come up to when I was scrolling through Instagram.

First time I encountered this subject on the gram but I explored it further so I can write this post.

Let me start by stating that prison should be about punishment but also for rehabilitation. In many countries the rules are different and the opportunities vary.

As we have seen, quarantine does no good to us mentally or physically. By that, people should be aware that in prison, prisoners don’t have the privilege when it comes to hobbies. They don’t have internet, phones, TV for extended period of time and in many places don’t even have TV at all. Most of what prisons have is library. Many don’t even have that. Not to mention that it is completely a waste because there have to be more choices when it comes to jobs while prisoners are inside as well as they are outside.

The article that I have read about is about pets in prisons. If the prisoner behaves well, can get a cat and if it stays on that track, can cary about that cat. This is a great opportunity to prove that people are carrying and animals wake up the inner carelessness.

Police workers were in the comments writing that the prisoners respond very well to that and the cats are very well taken care of.

Prisoner even knit hats and scarves for the cat 🙂 

This proves the above that rehabilitation can happen and by this – can happen even faster. The part where the pets are waking up some inner calmness and nourishment toward something it can lingеr furthermore. The slight possibility of that being that happening for a long run is wroth more than we can imagine: for the individual and for the pet, probably for the people around them when it goes out. Adopting that cat should be also a thing. A person took care of it and now can take care of it for the long run.

It has other side too – a pet gets a home.

Some more experiences on this reddit that I found the other day:

After I watched some shows and after I spent some time in quarantine, I realized that we don’t talk more about this and knowing how many people go back to prison because of lack of rehabilitation, it definitely needs to be talked about more!

Wishing you a happy day.


Glam&Gore (Mykie) and Swoop – a (youtube) friendship drama



Hello my Readers 

Every friendship is shakey because people don’t trust each other. And judging by this, I would say – with good reason. Today I watched swoops video about mykie. I have so many opinions on this subject – one of them placing an accent on FRIENDSHIP! Because swoop felt a certain way, she decided that she is entitled to make a video about it, instead of confronting mykie on the subject. Because she has audience, she decided to air all the problems to strangers. Starting from 5 years ago! How bitter can you be! 

If mykie did that awful thing, that should be a ticket for swoop to make the same thing to her? If you think that is the case, you have mental health figured wrong.

While mykie had her share of wrong doing, swoop is projecting her bad choices and decisions as mykie’s fault and as mykie’s ignition where she could have easily called her out in private messaging right there, on the spot. She also failed to mention this was 5 years ago. People change a lot in 5 years. I’m sure mykie has.

If you ever find yourself in similar position, know that you are there for people but you should not blame yourself for their downs. It is not cool to put all their blame on you – another struggling person while working on yourself because no matter how small it is, you are entitled to your pain.

Plus, people should know better than to read someone bias report (referring to Hollywood’s).

She is talking about how “you failed to mention stuff” but she went ahead and did the same thing with the “followers” part. By the “following” you might be referring to twitter or instagram, not only youtube. But she chooses to leave that part out. But instead, she shared someone elses tweet that fell into her narrative. 

While she could have directed her anger towards the bigger problem, swoop targets one person and makes an hour long video about it. This ain’t it. Again, you mykie is at fault for many of these things and I hope she changed throughout the years. But she should not blame herself for this. Only for the deeds that she has done.

Swoop used “gaslight” so much that it is clear that out of spite, she has decided not to see mykie’s part too but to instantly make it a gaslight.

She mentions that “you wrote some good stuff” but chooses not to share it.

Plus outing some private stuff? Do you know how many secrets I hav from people I am not friends with anymore (for many years at this point). Nobody, I mean NOBODY has heard or read any of them from me, much less share them for audience.

And to mention everything as “a black women” even though many of the problems aren’t connected with her skin color but she chooses to make it about it – for audience impact. With that, she just ridiculed real problems POC have. 

Assumptions about what people think (the end of the video) and again mentioning racism, manipulation and abuse (so you compare someone not wanting to hear you as abuse?). U uh..

P.s. that is how some people who are friends try to help. By talking about themselves in attempt to deflect you from thinking about your problem. Those friends who think that they need all the attention and are interpreting a conversation as belittling their pain are not friends. If you need someone to try to fix that problems instead only listening and exchanging problems, therapist is always the solution.

I put myself in mykies shoes and imagined how this was messed up. Completely agree that she made many mistakes. I also know that she learned throughout the years and grew as a person and should own the mistakes. But to say that she is not a friend only because she exchanged her problems too? She is not someone eases therapist.

By her own bias video (deliberately not mentioning the good parts), swoop treated mykie as her therapist, not as her friend. Friends exchange their problems but when mykie shared hers, swoop twisted them as „gaslighting“. 

On that note: 



On another note, some people are sharing why they will stop following mykie immediately and that just talks how infantile their decisions are by not taking into consideration the other part, swoop leaving so many things out for her convenience and many things, for example: 

„No i didn’t watch a video of the (trpphbia) look where she warned that she would be doing a look of it. i was scrolling on instagram one night and there it was“
And to that I say:  So people should stop creating now because you accidentally run into one of your phobias. And creators should stop making videos because many other people also have different type of phobias? Cool.

Instead of standing up to mykie with her points of view, swoop dragged mykie and told only what fitted into her narrative – conveniently compacting it into BLM, black women and the subject that are important and by that, swoop is invalidating and deminishing them by making it about all that instead of what it is – failed friendship. 

I learned about swoops new channel from mykie (she shared her many times, contrary to swoops bitter statement) and know she is very talented. I enjoyed her videos and felt for her. This one – I did not expect because from a hurt person, I would expect less that hurting other person. And I am not writing about careers, I am talking about something private – like their friendship. 

DISCLAIMER: I’m not diminishing or dismissing her pain, her suffering or anything that she creates or feels! I am only condemning hiding behind all those stuff. The video showed bitter person (mykie) not in the right place, exchanging gossip in confidence with her friend (swoop), and instead of swoop standing up and calling her out for that, she decided to save receipts (of her BEST FRIEND) for half a decade and make a video about it and make it about all those stuff instead of calling it like it is – broken friendship or mykie used to be crappy person in general. People actually fight to make a difference and are not making it about a crappy friend as swoop did. She hold a grudge for half a decade and decided to hide it behind all of those things and by that, ridicule whole movements that work hard to make a change.

After the video, mykie has shared an apology, which is considerate of her, knowing how bias the video is, but it show that she has learned, she is the better man and knows how to recognize a hurt person. This is the same what I have recognized from that video – a very hurt person trying to blame some of that to someone that shouldn’t be blamed (that much) but called out, right there and then! Projecting her pain and hiding it behind being POC. 


Do you have any opinions? Do you follow any of them?

Coming back just to share this, a social blade screenshot. Guess swoop’s video really payed off.



I wannna wear makeup.

I wanna wear lipstick without smearing it off of the mask.

I wanna wear dresses and skirts.

I wanna drink bear in the club.

I wanna dance.

I wanna sing from the top of my lungs to a song that I like that some band plays.

I wanna sing in a band.

I wanna band that makes songs.

I wanna go to the sea.

I wanna swim in the sea.

I wanna walk on the crisp stones on the beach.

I wanna walk the heavy sand on the shore.

I wanna feel the salt from the sea on my mouth.

I wanna sing with my friends.

I wanna see my friends that live in every possible country.

I wanna live in another country.

I wanna enjoy my life, not survive it.

I wanna surround myself with people with different views.

I wanna learn from other people.

I wanna embrace people’s differences.

I wanna food, clean water for everyone.

I want the sun fo cover everyone equally.

I wanna peace for everyone.

I wanna inner peace for everyone.

I wanna…..

Some nails


I really want to write more on this blog, but with everything going on, I just can’t seem to do it. At least I take shots of my nails but with my phone being too slow I can’t even upload them and have to do that on the PC, and that being slow it just means that I am in need of better ones but, this virus happened and ruined all of my plans.

Of course I take shots of them right before I take the nail polish off, as per usual.. 😀

Here are some of them 🙂





Until the next time…

Common denominator in the beauty dramas + Tati & many other breaking their silence

Common denominator in the beauty dramas + Tati & many other breaking their silence

It is a first time I am releasing two posts in one day.

Things about certain someone that is often called Voldemort (because of his malicious intentions and doings) are finally resurfacing. People finally got tired of his manipulations and oppression and went off. And when I write „went off“, oh boi did it went off. It started from the smaller channels and continued with Tati Westbrook.

If you aren’t familiar with the first thing, here it is – Someone can make your career. That same someone can also break it

It all starts to come together now. In every possible drama there is only one person that is always involved. Many have spoken, but we still give the the benefit of the doubt. Many smaller channels talked about this but it is something else when a big channel does it. It goes straight to the mainstream media. Although, mainstream media is often twisting the truth, just like they did with Jenna Marbles and her leaving, they have a reach – just like big youtubers have.

The silence is over and people are tired of being blackmailed.

It is just starting.

I read something interesting:
I really don’t think Tati is a snake. She has entirely too much to lose by saying what she’s said. Maybe she’s a bit too trusting or too naive. I can’t speak on the trauma she faced, and I don’t know how much of it factored into her decisions to now.

For people still trying to come on her and not to the other responsible master manipulator:

She’s only human. Her evident overall health declining speaks more than her words. She stated that in the end of the last year sat with James and apologized after he opened her eyes. There are many things we don’t see. If we nitpick every word we will miss the bigger picture.

People are calling out humans. When in reality, they do mistakes. Some of them take responsibility, some of them create fake evidence. Most of all, if you think all of them are full with drama, you clearly follow only them and most likely follow drama channels. Drama channels exist because people are watching them. There are so many small channels that have nothing to do with drama and only create all the time and nobody follows them because they lack just that essential thing – drama. SO, in part, people are to blame, not the creators.


And please stop comparing emotional health and how someones health is more important than someone else. I see many people involving BLM into this.

„That is how awareness and protesting works. Especially in a situation of petty useless drama when there’s more important things. And tati claims throughout that she is supporting and donating to BLM, but it contradicts with the fact that she’s deleting comments.“ 

You are wrong about this one. Protest where it is important. By coming for a woman that is clearly hurt, you are doing nobody a favor. If you think someones else health is useless, you are giving BLM a very bad name! Over the coarse of one year, she admitted that she lost weigh (as soon as I saw her it was evident), couldn’t get treatment about a subject that was hard for her and continued to decline with her emotional health. Granted, because of her video and someone elses manipulations James suffered a great deal but she admitted her mistake, took responsibility, apologized.

We do not need to spread more negativity towards them but to the master manipulator in this case! 


Have a nice one and don’t forget to do something good, however small it seems, it will seem big in others peoples eyes.
Antidote 😉
tati james c

My downside of wearing a mask (as a bike rider too)


Hi my Readers 🙂

With everything going on, many became aware about the downside of wearing mask.

While there are many misconceptions about this topic, I will address my thoughts on it. As I wrote previously – question everything.

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Since in my country is mandatory to wear mask in general public and in closed and dense areas, here are my thoughts on it.


The first thing: redness. And not some usual redness – but the kind you want to claw your skin away! It hurts, it scratches, it spreads across the whole face and lasts for a long time. It felt like tearing the skin down! The day I put the mask back on – it reappears,  seemingly stronger than before.

I cannot explain how I felt. I tried every possible cream and medical creams I had – nothing helped.

You know what made it worse? Seeing people not maintaining distance and not wearing any mask!



Mask might not lower your oxygen level…for the first few minutes. But as you wear it – it might. Depends on the conditions. Doctors wear it in well air conditioned area. We can’t compare that to an open market where it is boiling hot. You can wear it for a while but for people working there can be cruel.

„There is some evidence that N95s can lead to changes in oxygen and carbon dioxide levels when used for long periods, especially by people who are obese or have chronic lung issues. Тhey are not meant for long-term use and doctors try to take breaks from them. They have not been recommended for the general public.“

Coming from a country that battles with air pollution, I am quite familiar of the N95 masks and how they protect. Been reading and watching experiments just to inform myself on different types of masks.
I’ve been wearing N95 in winter when the air quality is very high. But lately I’ve been experiencing some trouble. Granted, I have not changed that mask because since this chaos began, there is constant deficit and I am not comfortable wearing any other mask so I ended up disinfecting the fabric. But have to mention that I have not been using it for that long of a time. (As I am writing this, my balcony door is open and it has been a long time since I’ve smelled the polluted air, but it is happening right now and it kinda creeping me out 😀 what a coincidence… and I just checked the pollution levels – they are high!).

Wearing a mask when you go off the bike

Living in warm areas: when outside is 35°C – 40°C, wearing a mask can cause heat stroke. I rode a bike the other day. It was boiling hot. I went to get some thing, was wearing the mask in open market and I could barely stand it. Imagine how older people feel or chronically ill people feel…
I rode a bike, park it right outside the institutions or stores. Right when I go off the bike I place the mask. And it was all too much!
You know how I felt that evening? – Like going to the emergency room in this conditions. Yes, the very thing that I was protecting myself from, I could have gotten it just by that – protecting myself.


But there is an upside too and you can read all about it by clicking here 🙂

Your best bet is to stay home and avoid unnecessary gatherings. If you have to go out, disinfect your hands before you handle your mask and touch your face.

Stay safe! 

Remember to support your local stores and businesses in this weird times even if it is little bit inconvenient for you, it will mean great deal to them!

Have a good one,
Antidote 😉

Removing a color altogether


Hi my Readers

You know how I feel about the original BLM and what has become because of someones agenda. In my country, just today there were audio proves that proved this is the case. It took pure intentions of the people and they turned it into someones agenda. If you don’t know what I am writing about, you can read about it by clicking here.

Yesterday I’ve read about how some of the largest cosmetic companies are moving to remove some words including „white“, „bleach“, „bleaching“, „whitening“, „fair“, „light“, „lightening“. I’m sorry (not really), but how are we supposed to identify a hair color and what should be done to it by not including these words? Can someone please explain to me why are we canceling a word that explains color like THE BASIC ONE like „white“? I am all about rights but this ain’t it!

Another example is chess. Some has come out with a statement that chess is discriminatory because has black and white figures. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? It is old play that includes PAWNS TOO! Shall we move to remove them from the game too? I..I just can’t… I’m mindblown by the reach!

I thought they wont touch music because it is kind of foreign to most people but noooo, I was wrong. Black metal I now apparently racist. Yes, you’ve read that right. The genre.

The list is so long but I will end with the movie „Gone With The Wind“. It is reality that was once lived. It is there. You can’t change the future by erasing the history.

I’m all about rights. But you can’t do that if you don’t want to acknowledge history. You can’t erase history. You can’t impact the future by making the things worse.




World in chaos…


Hi my Readers 🙂

With everything going on, I feel like writing my scattered thoughts and I will do that. At least with some of them….

I am following a person in Amsterdam that doesn’t believe in the virus. It is all into the conspiracy theories. While I am not excluding any, I am bound to think that he is doing it because of his business. He has an expensive place that he rents. With people not traveling, he is losing money. He is going as far as sharing others peoples businesses that promote not wearing and condone wearing mask with „if you wear mask, don’t enter my store“ posters on their doors. Knowing this, I understand why they are desperate to go back. But we also can’t ignore the fact that many hospitals were way above the capacity limit. The doctors had to come up with more ethical points so they can decide who gets the ventilator and the machines.

Conspiracy theories where „they died from something else, not the virus“.
Here is my explanation: everyone was quarantined. People couldn’t die from traffic accidents, from work – related accidents etc.
„People are dying from current diseases that were already battling from“. While that might be true, they still had many years if they didn’t had this.

There was also theory about this that the virus was designed to lower the people that were a weigh to the system aka pensioners and chronically ill people. I can totally see that.

There are many people that don’t believe there is virus. To tell you the truth, I’ve watched so many series to prove to me that we need to take everything with a reserve and give everyone the benefit of the doubt. Listen, read, think for yourself. Don’t rely only on mass media. Even WHO can’t make a heads or tails of this situation an they handled it poorly.

Another thing I would like to point out is that everything shut down because of this, everyone ridiculed people that wanted „their freedom“ by not wearing mask and then BLM came and the ones that ridiculed, became the very one thing they ridiculed. They threw their safety out the window by not wearing masks while protesting, not maintaining their distance and now – they are the ones that are asking for more help and everything to remain closed. Everything closed and they decided to do that while for a good cause – but with no masks? And now they ask the businesses to remain closed? Why, so they can all go and protest some more. Mind you, this protests are not longer about BLM, they became something else. Something that I’ve seen that happened in my country. Then – I believed that I am a part of a change. While that was true, it was taken over by a bigger power that took a pure protest and turned it into someones agenda. It is all so clear to me now as I am watching it happening from „afar“. And those protests in some of the European cities – they are not about BLM! Those cities have such a big problem by the migrants and their mafia and media led people to believe that they were looting because of BLM!? No! Stop! This is not true. While many people did go out to protest about BLM, the majority were not there because of that. Did you know that in some European cities, there are zones that are proclaimed as a „no-go zones“? If not, here a one clip that can shed a light on this topic:


Now, the ones that protest about something totally different are demanding more help and business to stay close because of „fear of the virus“. Why, so they can go out and protest some more? That is not how it goes. Many lost their jobs because of their health and they slapped them with protests. Everyone stayed at home for they safety, and they slapped them with protests.

In some countries, people stayed at home but many decided not to care, now those countries are battening the first wave that came late. I can’t even imagine how will they battle the second wave. All because they wouldn’t follow „stay home“ measures for 3 weeks. 4 weeks later, people in already bad financial condition lost heir jobs and to top it all – they followed the rules but now they can also be infected because of the other group that didn’t care.
Many postponed their plans, lost money, put everything on hold and are challenged with irreparable damage for nothing. Their government didn’t care enough to take actions and that is why everyone is pissed off.


To the ones that protested about „their freedom because they didn’t wear masks“ I have questions: how does it feel to have enough stability not to give a damn about others peoples health?!

Now, because of them, we are faced with the „new normal“. Because 3 weeks of their rebellion, now we are faced with who-knows-how-long of a state of fear and aggression.



Perfect time to perfect your eyeliner (and some blogs with eye makeup inspo)


Hi my Readers 🙂

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Since we are living this chaos and since many of us in the whole world are at home, I think that this is the perfect time to perfect our eye makeup game.

We all are wearing masks (if you aren’t and you are out and about, get one!) and all everyone can see is our eyes. Then why not work on our eye makeup game? Now is the time to burn some steam off while practicing our eye makeup.

Here are some amazing people that already are doing amazing:

Hopefully I included as much as I could remember and I will add more as they came up 🙂

You already know how I feel about the neutral makeup.

Don’t be afraid to experiment! Now is the time to loosen up for the future! Use some color. If you don’t like it – you can always wash it off and try another color. Don’t be afraid to be yourself! We can see how short life is. Why not make the most of it!

I hope everyone is safe and are doing ok during this chaotic times!

Wishing you amazing day!